Is Your Pain for Public Consumption?

“Like many people, I’ve had a difficult childhood,” says Author Mary DeMuth. “One of the things I struggled with in telling my story openly was that I didn’t know if I was through it yet and in a way, I don’t feel like I’m 100% completely healed of that story. I also worried about what other people would think, particularly family members who are still alive. And that was something I had to come to terms with. I realized that if everybody had that fear, and if everybody waited for all the people to die before they could write their memoir, then there would never be any encouragement for those who are walking through the muck of healing from their past.” Lifestory Toolkit: Trello Free Download: I Should Have Raised My Hand

Pain and a Broken Childhood

Mary DeMuth, author, speaker, and founder of Re-Story Me, had a very difficult childhood, including having been the child of 3 divorces and a victim of sexual assault.  Those issues can’t but help come out in writing because so much of what makes up our lives is formed in the first few years.  Pieces of Mary’s story are told in her book “Building the Christian Family You Never Had” which was followed up with her full memoir, “Thin Places”.  She has gone on to write much more and today, she’s also an international speaker, working with Compassion International at college campuses, and she is a guest at writer’s conferences.

Journaling to Achieve Healing-the First Steps

  • Mary has always been a journal writer, so that much of her story was already in words but it was still ‘bottled up’ inside.
  • When she first became a Christian, she started telling everyone her story, the ‘awkward oversharer at the party’, because she was desperate for people to hear her and to heal; she just didn’t know how to do it.
  • She learned that was not always wise and it wasn’t until college, when she found a trusted group of friends that would pray for her, that the real healing started to happen.
    • Her advice: If you haven’t already gotten your story out, journaling is an excellent first step, and then sharing it with a very trusted friend who won’t diminish or dismiss its importance.


Healing and the Creative Process

  • God has used every book Mary’s ever written to heal her, so every time she’s inspired she wonders what He has to say and show her.
  • God uses the creative process within our own lives for our benefit.
    • You don’t have to write for public consumption. You may just have to do it for your own eyes, but God is going to do amazing things through your words by you simply writing them.


Letting Go of Fear

  • One of things Mary struggled with when telling her story very openly was not knowing if she was ‘through it’ yet
    • She didn’t feel 100% completely healed and how that might affect her writing
  • She also had a fear of what others might think, especially relatives who were still living.
    • She realized it was just something she would have to handle because if we all wait for everyone to die, there would never be any encouragement for others who are dealing with the muck from their past.
    • Although you never truly get rid of that fear, Mary knew she had to overcome it because God had put her in place to write these books.
    • It was a very scary and tenuous place to be, but after publication she never gave it another worry; she knew that her words would set people free . That joy trumped the fear.


‘Mind if I Pray for You?”- Mary’s Website and Newsletter

  • She knows that many people receiving her newsletter have deep struggles and may be in a dark place, so she when she first started it, that piece of praying for her readers evolved and “Mind if I pray for you?” became a good habit
    • Mary believes that people’s lives are changed for the better when they are prayed for; and
    • It also allowed her readers to get to know her better
  • The goal for her readers is to be a community, a group for those that she shepherds.
    • She feels a responsibility for them; part of that is being concerned for their welfare and that concern for their well-being includes prayer.
  • There are some times when being vulnerable in her blog and newsletter can get tiring but she also knows that this is the space God has called her to and it’s very rewarding.
    • On a recent poll of her readers, the overwhelming response she received was that their image of her was one of authenticity. She knows that God is working through her authenticity to reach others.
    • She recently received an email from a reader, a 44-year old woman, who has finally found the courage through Mary’s writing, to tell her own story for the first time.
      • If Mary had not been vulnerable in her memoir, this reader may not have ever realized that she could be as well, and would not have started the healing process, so everything Mary does to be open with her audience is worth it.
      • She thinks of herself as a pioneer-she goes out in front to tackle the difficult things so that it’s less scary for those coming behind her.

Processing Pain

Lessons Learned from Writing Online

  • Don’t process your pain about someone else online before you’ve at least attempted to handle it with them offline.
  • Be very cautious about being angry on the internet-it’s very difficult to convey tone in text and things can be easily misinterpreted.
  • When she is the most vulnerable in her posts..that’s when she gets the most interaction from readers.
    • That doesn’t mean to ‘let it all out’ online all the time; it just means that when you are open and authentic, those are the issues and subjects that really touch hearts.
  • It’s really important to process your pain before you hand it over for public consumption.
    • If it’s new to you, start working through it, make sense of it before you try to convey it to someone else.
  • Start with a journal and then use it later for fodder – don’t ‘word vomit’ on your readers; there aren’t any valuable lessons to be learned for anyone if you’re rambling.


Mary’s Writing Life

In addition to writing almost every day, whether it be a book she’s working on, her newsletter, or her blog, Mary is also a member of a mastermind group of other writers.  This is something she highly recommends for other writers as well.  You don’t have to live in the same city – Mary participates with her group via Google Hangout. She also speaks at writers’ conferences, another avenue she suggests for aspiring authors.  These conferences will give you all the info you need to know about publishing in one place at one time and you will also have the opportunity to rub shoulders with other writing professionals and authors.

Some of the books that she recommends are:

Characters and Viewpoint-Orson Scott Card

On Writing-Stephen King

Stein on Writing-Sol Stein

Bird by Bird-Anne Lamott

The First Five Pages-Noah Lukeman

On Writing Well-William Zinsser

Additional resources can also be found in her book, “The 11 Secrets of Getting Published

Check out her free e-book, ‘What to Do After People Poop on You’,  a guide for helping you get over relational heartbreak.

Take Home Message:

  • Start journaling your story to process some of the pain before putting it out for public consumption
  • Seek out a writing mastermind group, or writing conferences, even if you are a beginner


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About: Mary DeMuth

If you met Mary DeMuth today, her joy would confuse you. Who she has become in light of tragedy is a testimony of Jesus’s ability to transform a broken life. A child of three divorces, a victim of sexual assault at a young age, with a father who died when she was ten, Mary wanted to end her life in her teens. In the tenth grade, she heard about Jesus, and she knew she wanted to chase after Him for the rest of her life. Thankfully, He chased her.

Mary is the author of thirty books, including her latest: The Day I Met Jesus: The Revealing Diaries of Five Women from the Gospels. She has spoken around the world about God’s ability to uncage a life, bringing needed freedom to her audiences.  She’s been on the 700 Club, spoken in Munich, Cape Town, and Monte Carlo, and planted a church with her family in southern France. Her best work? Being a mom to three amazing young adults and the wife of nearly 25 years to Patrick. She makes her home in Dallas alongside her husband, two dueling cats, and a dog who smells like fish. Find out more at





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